spinakeravro

I have deleted the most part of this diary. This journal was writen many years ago. Some words were writen by Spinaker, a young man, a young master, unsure of himself, discovering live in Gor. This journal showed my doubts, my questions, my live.

I am now different, i think now i am a Master and i have understood a lot of things. I don't agree now with some page i wrote, so i deleted 95% of my post.

Kiss all.

I don't know if i agree with this text, but it is an interesting one ands it helps to think about what is slavery. I think there is a lot of sexual misery on Gor. Last days, i was wandering out of Gor to Gay's dungeons with an alt (not really for sex...by curiosity...). My biggest surprise was to meet some gorean Masters...and famous one. That means they are not happy with their boys, that means surely they go in this kind of aera for meeting tops i suppoze. It gives me a lot to think...i will try to be myself now and one with my feelings...and if i want on Gor to be bottom i will be as i will be top if this feeling is in my mind, with no shame. A Master at first is a free man, no?...


“This one has come upon some unhappy kajiri in his travels, and hopes with this scroll to describe the Secret to being a happy slave.
A boy uses the term “Secret” advisedly: There’s an abundance of scrolls in circulation for the training of kajiri, describing duties, etiquette, skills… even a prayer for slaves. Those are all useful things to know, but unless a kajirus has the right disposition, no amount of training will help him bring true pleasure to his Master.
It would be absurdly presumptuous of a kajirus to propose a “rule”, but a boy offers the following “gao’s Guideline”:
A kajirus desires nothing but to please his Master, and this he needs with every facet of his existence.
It is not enough that a kajirus needs this thing above all else: there can be nothing else.
If a kajirus truly lives with this sole desire, happiness for the Master and his slave will follow naturally. If not, the slave will always have conflict in his heart, and the Master will have bought only a captive, not a true kajirus.
Praise and love as epiphenomena. It can be very difficult for a new slave to not seek praise from his Master; some even seek their Master’s love (kar). This is all doomed to bring misery: the true slave seeks only to please his Master, and knowledge of that Master’s pleasure is the only reward for a slave. If it further pleases the Master to give the slave some token of his pleasure, such as candy, a pat on the head, a word of praise, then the slave’s reward must be not the token, but the Master’s pleasure in giving it.
The same is true of love. If a Master is pleased by the love of a slave, then and only then shall that slave love his Master. If it happens that a Master derives pleasure from loving a slave, then the slave must accept this love because it pleases the Master to give it. A slave must not desire the love of his Master, but rather must desire only the pleasure his Master may obtain from feeling that love.
It seems that many slaves have trouble with prioritizing their emotions when it comes to love. Perhaps as some Urth barbarism, many seem to think love is the ultimate reward, and pleasing service is the means by which love is obtained. This is backwards, and such a slave simply must undergo whatever Priest King magic is necessary to get the neurons in his midbrain wired correctly. A “slave” who seeks love will never be able to get it from a Master; a slave who seeks to please his Master may attain love as a side-effect, but love itself is not rewarding to a slave, rather only the possibility that by being loved he has pleased his Master.
Being and becoming. Different slaves surely follow different paths to acquiring the sole desire of pleasing their Masters. Some may be born with it, some feel it within them on Urth and are driven by it to Gor, some grow into it after arrival on Gor–either before or after capture by their Master. It seems that most kajiri, sadly, never attain it.
All manner of pathological behaviors–khoses, really–are manifested in a slave that has not (yet?) adopted this mindset.
It is also possible for a Master to distract His slaves from attending to His pleasure, or hiding that which will please Him. If a slave doesn’t know what he can do to please his Master, then that slave is going to be miserable–and that Master will not be pleased. Indeed, the Master may become displeased with the slave. The Master might then punish the slave–perhaps giving that slave menial tasks that, when performed, are not even pleasing to the Master.
There is currently a lot of interest in gladiator-like Slave Fighting. While a boy celebrates this to the extent that it pleases the slaves’ Owners as a kind of entertainment, it is deeply troubling that some Owners have turned to this as an outlet for the energy of their kajiri, to keep the slaves from getting bored. Now, if this is a genuine motivation, somebody–either Free or slave–is out of touch with what a slave desires. A slave cannot possibly be bored, unless that slave just doesn’t know how to please his Master. This one daily curses the sun for again too soon setting and rising, with not enough ahns to even begin all he knows would please his Master.
It is a slave’s duty to figure out what will please his Master, but it’s a wise Master who will give the slave the one thing he needs: that Master’s own pleasure. A Master who orders a slave to do something that is not pleasing to Himself may be starting a spiral of mutual sorrow and despair.
Honor among kajiri. When true slaves greet each other as brothers and sisters, they are not expressing some fraternity of debasement as some Frees may suppose. Rather, they are honoring each other for their common achievement of totally selfless devotion and service. It is not expected that a Free Person can comprehend this “honor,” but this one assures You that honor is as strong between good slaves as between the most noble of Frees. Slave honor is, of course, expressed with utmost humility–else it would vanish in the breath with which it is spoken.”
- Gao Niangao, First Boy of Arquana

i am reading "imaginative sexe" writen by J.Norman in the end of seventies. It is his theory about sexuality. It is a very interesting book, i have never readen a such book in my life.

"Imaginative sexe" is a theory about our sexuality, it is not a roman. It gives us a lot of keys for understanding our fantasies, why some like to be top and others to be sub, what does means to play and role play with sexe, what is the respect of his partner too. For Norman, society formates us, gives normes about "the good sexuality", it is a disaster for him. For Norman it kills sex, it kill our creativity. Norman wants a new sexual revolution and it is "imaginative sexe". For norman we have to use our mind, our imagination for exploring sex and discovers new feelings.

For example he writes that a rape is a common fantaisy of men and women. It is in our gene. But to rape is a crime for Norman, because we are humans and we have humanity. The solution for him is to role play the rape, with love, with respect, with kindness and to stop immediately if our partner is hurt and feels bad. You have just to switch off the light in your bedroom, to hunt your wife and capture her, to leash her (softly of course)...he tells us that what it is important is that your wife can feel that it is really possible than you would be able to rape her...and after you fuck her deeply...but of course, it is just a role play and she is agreed with the game.

"Imaginative sexe" is a role play, it is to create feelings in the mind of our partner, theses feelings are close of our animal's brain. The top will play with the mind of his sub....and, be sure that for this time, i like very very much this idea. It opens me a galaxy of incredible fantasies for SL, i am not sure than in Rl it will be so easy to do that with my BF.

Gor is the fantasy, the imaginative sex of Norman, it is the world he has built with his wife for having wonderful sexe, but in the brain of Norman, it is just imagination, Gor can't be real and the gorean's way can be taken seriously as a way of life, 24H/ 24H. Gor is only the dream of a man.

It gives us keys for having, in our real live, wonderful sex's party with our partner. Norman trusts a lot about fidelity. There is a lot of examples too, it is very amazing. This book opened my mind in RL. I understand now a lot. I understand my dear Leo now, i understand my self, i understand why i was shocked but the role play of some crazy men and why i was right to be shocked...i have the answers, it is wonderful to have answers, i was looking for them since a year ago, i am the most happy man of Gor now.

So you have now to read this book, because it is the real theory about sexe of Normal. Gor is not the theory of norman about sex, there is a big confusion in the mind of people about that.

I am Spin, the first sword (FS) of Red Rock Oasis, a tashid's warrior and the head of my cast. I am gay too.

For me a warrior must be proud, have honour. He is here to serve his Ubar at first and his city. His duty is to execute orders, to protect citizens.

i hate to see warriors raping people for they pleasure. I hate to see warriors attacking others city because they think it is fun.

For me this kind of warriors are outlaws, mercenaries. I have seen a lot of warriors, some officers too have a dark heart. i have seen outlaws with more honour than warrior, especially in the city of WWF. I had seen warriors tortured an outlaw, just for the pleasure to submit them, they were ten against one, where is honour? Where is the code? All the day they have tortured him, more and more, deeply and deeply...incredible...

The best warriors in Gor have humanity inside themself. Read please pirate of gor, the end of the books and you will understand what i mean. If necessary, a warrior have to forgotten the code because all is not in the code of honour. Few warriors knows that. They are warriors because they like to fight, just that.

It is that why i am the first sword of my city, i am not the best fighter of Gor, but honour has a special sense for me. Never have i thought than a day i will be a FS. Title is nothing for me, but duty is all and it is a very interesting job to be FS.